Margo's got Moxie ! : the diary of miss red high heels

2013 res As 2013 comes to a close, I wanted to reflect on all that has happened, but at this time, I slide into the end zone exhausted and out of bounds. This year has been challenging, eye opening, and remarkable in many ways. I came across a church that welcomed me in its place at a moment when I most needed a community! fair oaks presby brought me a bible study group of ladies and joy. i got in a car accident in feb, same month went sky diving, winery hopping, and later all different things. Thisyear was a rough one for my family and we hope and pray next year brings good tidings and memories; may the storm be over for us all, but help us see how much it makes us stronger and grateful of what we have done to make it through as a family, love each other no matter what. There were other good things though, max and james played well for water polo and working away at school, James will graduate in May and Paul from law school. For me this year has brought lessons and much learning in ...

My eyes turn green when I cry..... Some say it's a pretty color, but still some tell me they would rather they saw my brown eyed sparkle :). I wonder what makes a sparkle, or a joy that a person can have; even if they lose a sporting event, or have a rough day,  lose something important, are made fun of, hurt, or filled with anger, the joy makes its way to our central being. Maybe it's the fake-it-till-you-make-it factor; of if you just pretend you are happy you will be. (actually works believe me! even if smiling through the tears or on the verge of yelling, or whatever you are feeling). Nothing is as bad as it really seems, well it is at the time, I am certain. I think it could be the romantic in me or the hope, where in the movie the guy or girl races to beat time or a change in fate to try to get to their person in time, to tell them how much they love them them; my latest, was when Jackson Avery from Grey's Anatomy (spoiler alert!) stood up at April Kepner's weddin...

I live in a town that isn’t too big, or too small, it’s quaint. When I was in college and attended school in Reno, the place was called: “Biggest Little City In the World.” The place seemed like a city with all the lights, casinos, noise, smells, and lots of people everywhere. I could smell disgusting Mc Donalds, then pass a bakery and a coffee shop and smell delicious warm baked goods and roasted coffee beans. I would see everything from blinking lights, to streakers, to homeless people with carts, and weird outfits, or drunkards staggering the walkways. Reno was entertaining, there was never a dull moment, and I loved it especially when it snowed, all around campus, and once you stepped away from the streets, the school itself was tucked back from downtown a bit, so I didn’t feel too overwhelmed. At times, even now, I miss that place. Although I have come to discover I am not a city girl at all, even if Reno isn’t a city really. I always dreamt of living in New York with th...

Weather gets colder, jingle bells are ringing, Christmas music all over the stores, and everyone wants to have the yule tide cheer. Silly but every year I want one thing, no clothes, no trips, not food, or money, or any present a person can have, I want for each person to get a special wish it may not come right away, but I pray they are happy in some way shape or form, to realize that a gift is not going to be the solution it's the people and where you are at. For myself this year alone, I have my own place, and I am working very hard at Aerojet and the year has been incredible, crazy, terrible, wonderful, and a gift this time around. Christmas fast approaching, I feel one thing, I want my family and friends around me and eat a bunch of food and enjoy one another. The greatest gift we can ask for is Christ's gift to us to live and breathe as we do. Cheesy as this might sound, it's a gift that lasts, and it's love. All I want for Christmas is you. I would like it everyw...

You know what really is disconcerting, is expecting someone to understand who you are and as the saying goes: "be unapologetically yourself." I can't apologize for thinking, feeling, saying, breathing, or anything, but for some reason i always do. I fear what people think, and what will come out of it and how I will be judged and one day i wont care so much, I will not berate myself for mistakes Ive made or for someone else who doesnt understand me or appreciate who iam. I have two awesome brothers who when everything seems awash they remind me Im worth it. Sitting in the hot tub at a hotel that looks like an italian villa, the other nite, a random firework went off in the sky, max and I looked up and I felt better. It was a gold light of sparks and incredibly surprising. I am so anxious and at times cannot help what I feel. When I miss people I really miss them, no question. When I care I really care, and its funny when you dont expect something terrible to happen or if ...

Workaholic: My career/school comes first I have heard it said before, that when people put their job over their home life or their well-being they can get burned. Sure it’s nice to have a sweet paycheck that goes up, and a boss nod or recommendation or promotion, but is it really super awesome when the people you love, don’t get to see you ? I can’t launch into my opinion without providing my own scope at work. I want to be able to be a level three data manager and it would be incredibly cool to be able to travel, write for Google and lead a team, but that’s a lot to ask for someone who has only been here a year. Try taking a red eye flight, juggling a laptop and a conference call, with a beeper in hand for emergencies (over dramatized version, but pretty close), and then it becomes clear. Deadline for tests or project comes up, say goodbye to social life, sleep, and normal until said studying or project is finished. People claim they love the constant go and non-stop hit the ground...

Someone once told me that if something happens to you or about you, or near you, write about it. I started a normal everyday workday with the whole mindset that I would get some work done and then head to the gym. Everything was going quite well till 3pm rolled around. A coworker stopped by to talk to me about last weekend. The guy inadvertently sat on my desk.....okay granted it would be like leaning against a structure, but still major annoying and I have a chair for a reason in my office. He chatted away and then all of a sudden the desk came off it's hinges and out flew two heavy computer monitors, a phone and its jacks and headset, a large printer and the desk shelf itself... it happened so fast I didn't have time to pull back. The whole set of it landed on my right foot. I went oh shiz... yes I managed a non cuss word.... miracle people... miracle. bit my fist and groaned in pain. I looked down and it was purple! The loud thud caused my office mate to come over and then o...