Margo's got Moxie ! : the diary of miss red high heels

I always wonder if each time there is a hand outstretched, or a helping octopus arm in your direction, you aren't going to ignore it, unless of course you don't want the help, in which case, seek no further assistance or bother with anything. I have always thought of myself as someone who enjoys helping people and working together with the resources I have or others carry to create something beautiful. I am caretaker personality and I give as much as I can. I remember being in a sermon at church where the pastor talked about how much gratitude we have for our maker who never ceases to amaze us with his gifts and love. In humanity, I think it comes to a point where we all seem to have our limits or conditions on which we justify no longer being able to give or possess grace, or humility. I have a difficult coworker at work whom I have given my all and stretched myself to the limit to reach her in a way I had hoped would effectively change how I was treated or how I felt each tim...

I came home from downtown Sac this evening from a wonderful friend's birthday party. A woman I did not know almost threw up on me and I held her hair back as she threw up in the bathroom sink at a restaurant. She had too much to drink and her date was waiting outside and looked dumbly in my direction as I called for a waiter for the mess clean up and for some water for the lady. She repeatedly told me how embarrassed she was, and that she couldn't find the faucet handle..... Gross right? and she 'blames it on the alcohol'.  How does this all go again? You had too much, but you claim it was all part of the fun...you say... Your parents are disappointed in you and it doesn't look good. Flash forward. It's your 21st birthday and the drinks are flowing. No one tells you to eat food or drink water, or to quit the chugging. You keep going. Shot after shot after shot. Your friends start to look pretty blurry and you are dancing on the dance floor, maybe some clothes c...

"Your internal attitudes are more impt than you external circumstances,"assistant pastor Jon said. Some people say that church is a waste of time or it doesn't mean anything. I go to church to enrich my life, expand my community circle and strive to serve. Im not Ghandi or the pope by no means and would rather not be---maybe Opera...kidding. But when I go there, the world and its judgements, worries, poverty, and our own transgressions fall away as we enter His House for us! I met a group of women in a bible study who have impacted my life and its a reminder that no matter what I am experiencing, I can remember that God loves me unconditionally; a place of refuge. Every day we wake up and we choose how our day will go with our attitudes: we have a choice to be positive Polly as my mother used to say, or negative Norbert. Here at the 24hr gym its same mantra. You can feel incredibly awful on your way in and not want to even be there at all. On my way out the door after a w...

Aerojet Rocketdyne had to go through a layoff of 60 employees at our sight. I have never been through layoff before. My father has been through several as have some of my friends. However, this will mark my first time right in the middle of it all. This morning I came into work like any other day and began my daily routine. The company informed us the layoff would happen at the end of the month. People weren't sure when and or how. I can tell you, that it was a killer to everyone's overall morale and stability for the past couple weeks. Imagine not knowing if you are going to be packing your bags and leaving at any second. Programs I support are losing funding and the reality hits like a stone cold rock to a window, shattering safety, or what we hoped would be job security. Now I can't sit here and gloat, but I often felt guilty today because I passed. I made it through and I didn't get called... some of my colleagues did. Ciro Morales, Diana Davis, Art Mclevy, Paul Par...

The spring time for work can ultimately be a very busy time for myself and a few of my colleagues and especially the company. With the onset of layoffs and stress from work, I felt I really needed a get away trip this month with some gals from work. We left on a Thursday late afternoon from Sacramento and flew into San Diego. I was so excited I could hardly sleep the night before! I wanted to get out of dodge and it is so important to simply take a breath or take a break, otherwise you will go crazy. Tara and Julie accompanied me on this trip and we arrived at the St. James Historic Hotel in downtown SD. The hotel was not your average Westin or Marriot, it had a 24 hour restaurant and bar right within the place as you walked in the lobby. I had a great eggs benedict there and a mimosa for Friday breakfast and so worth wait.  The elevators were old glass doors that you opened and pushed the crate slider aside to get in and go up or down. The beds were comfy, and the room w...

I wake up at 6am during the week, Monday through Friday for work. I used to be getting up at 5am to go to the gym then work. There is something about waking up early to start the day. You look out the window of your car on the drive and see the sun rising from across the sky and smell the air. Traffic is light when its not 9am, and my drive is short. I feel comfortable knowing that if I forget something I can turn around and come back and I am not late, because I make my own hours. I work a nine hour day and then go to the gym usually in the afternoons if not in the am. I feel the day is wasted if you sleep in, but it isn't wasted if you went to bed at 2am and really need to catch up on some z's. My mind may not be sharpest some days, but I become alert after a cocoa or a cup of coffee followed by some oat meal. At work I check my emails and begin tasks and cherish to-do lists and check them off as I go along. The day goes faster if you start earlier. Lately, though I have been...

Anxiety is that little fear in the back of your mind that things won't go as you want them to or that automatically you assume the worst. According to the awesome book Monkey Mind, “Anxiousness isn't shameful. It's being alive to life's contradictions.” I am 25 years old and I experience anxiety almost every day, but the trick is to not let it win. There are some days where I feel like my world is falling apart even if one thing doesn’t go as a planned an angst mind becomes uncomfortable. I truly have to remind myself that God is in control. Take dating for instance. I am an open book and as great as that may sound, it’s as if I’m diving head first into the shallow end of a pool without thinking. Everyone wants in your business; just ask the people at the office who have slow days or are so bored they will listen to you babble about whatever is on your mind, even your most personal of discussions. Sure, it’s great to talk about it, but about three or four people later,...