Margo's got Moxie ! : the diary of miss red high heels

DEADLINES are crazy and so is working when you didn't expect to still be on the clock on a friday or whenever past normal working hours. Nothing is more challenging than staying at work super late when everyone has gone home to their familes and are in their beds sleeping. Now wait a minute here. I am not complaining. I absolutely love my job more than I can say and am thrilled to be part of this company.  Today made me realize that some people often forget those that spend long hours on weekends and sacrifice their vacations on the job. some like it, some even live here, and stay night owl hours, some can't sleep and feel its better to be here. I am amazed that all of these folks just keep doing so with their heads down no questions asked, some do complain or get upset, but we all know its for a cause and a reason to pay the bills and such and better than laid off and on the streets. One of my colleagues who got laid off was lucky and was brought back as a temp employee to...

(Denial) Writing it on paper, saving it in a text message, calling and then hanging up by dialing on star *67, pretending you aren't there when you are standing in the next room, pressing snooze on the alarm to stay in the dream, doesn't diminish the words you want to say : "I miss you." Then, cursing at your cellphone because it's day who knows anymore, and they still haven't answered, oh what an ass, I'll show them, they can't do this to me, well, I never. (Anger) The hopeful side appears and you began to assume it's all your fault, if only you hadn't made them ignore you, or or, what a minute, if only I could get another shot, they will see, things will be better than ever. Maybe they simply forgot, had something come up, I'm sure it's just a misunderstanding. (Bargaining). You find  yourself refusing to go out, hiding behind junk food, ice cream, Netflix, anything to escape the world, or...

Last week, I experienced a rough situation, no actually it was a heartbreaking one. I waited in a bar for two hours for a guy I thought cared about me and came to discover he was a big jerk who I did not need to waste all my tears on. If you have ever been stood up, let me tell you something, I know what you mean. What's ironic, is I read a book once called 'Why men love b**ches' and I thought I had learned everything I needed to know, but that's not the case, because I know in my heart I can't be like that, but I can at least protect myself. I can prepare myself for the future and never again wait longer than 10mns on a guy, not two hours! Anyways, I was having a rough evening and my friend from life group had asked me Wednesday night if I wanted to go to Women's Retreat. I threw out the application, but last Thursday, resolved after midnight and lots of tears that I would love to go if there were still openings. I faxed over all of my info ...

So I work underneath the engineering department kind of blanketed underneath configuration management and I do data management. People ask me what on earth that is or if I am a secretary or if I work for the president. None of the above. As a data manager, I take data items that specific programs send to me, i.e. the team gives me a document or report that they generate such as financials, risk, obsolescence, test reports, master schedules, weekly program reports, metrics, etc. I then take these said reports and submit them into a master supplier portal system depending on the program and submit it to the customer. My monthly schedule is all over the place. Some days I am barely gasping for air and time seems to slip away, and it’s 4 o’clock already. Other days, I am picking my eyeballs out because I am all caught up, and it’s only 10am, and the doc owner still isn’t done with their work. It’s no picnic waiting on someone for their input and review, especially if it’s contracts or prog...