Margo's got Moxie ! : the diary of miss red high heels

Aerojet Rocketdyne had to go through a layoff of 60 employees at our sight. I have never been through layoff before. My father has been through several as have some of my friends. However, this will mark my first time right in the middle of it all. This morning I came into work like any other day and began my daily routine. The company informed us the layoff would happen at the end of the month. People weren't sure when and or how. I can tell you, that it was a killer to everyone's overall morale and stability for the past couple weeks. Imagine not knowing if you are going to be packing your bags and leaving at any second. Programs I support are losing funding and the reality hits like a stone cold rock to a window, shattering safety, or what we hoped would be job security. Now I can't sit here and gloat, but I often felt guilty today because I passed. I made it through and I didn't get called... some of my colleagues did. Ciro Morales, Diana Davis, Art Mclevy, Paul Par...

The spring time for work can ultimately be a very busy time for myself and a few of my colleagues and especially the company. With the onset of layoffs and stress from work, I felt I really needed a get away trip this month with some gals from work. We left on a Thursday late afternoon from Sacramento and flew into San Diego. I was so excited I could hardly sleep the night before! I wanted to get out of dodge and it is so important to simply take a breath or take a break, otherwise you will go crazy. Tara and Julie accompanied me on this trip and we arrived at the St. James Historic Hotel in downtown SD. The hotel was not your average Westin or Marriot, it had a 24 hour restaurant and bar right within the place as you walked in the lobby. I had a great eggs benedict there and a mimosa for Friday breakfast and so worth wait.  The elevators were old glass doors that you opened and pushed the crate slider aside to get in and go up or down. The beds were comfy, and the room w...

I wake up at 6am during the week, Monday through Friday for work. I used to be getting up at 5am to go to the gym then work. There is something about waking up early to start the day. You look out the window of your car on the drive and see the sun rising from across the sky and smell the air. Traffic is light when its not 9am, and my drive is short. I feel comfortable knowing that if I forget something I can turn around and come back and I am not late, because I make my own hours. I work a nine hour day and then go to the gym usually in the afternoons if not in the am. I feel the day is wasted if you sleep in, but it isn't wasted if you went to bed at 2am and really need to catch up on some z's. My mind may not be sharpest some days, but I become alert after a cocoa or a cup of coffee followed by some oat meal. At work I check my emails and begin tasks and cherish to-do lists and check them off as I go along. The day goes faster if you start earlier. Lately, though I have been...

Anxiety is that little fear in the back of your mind that things won't go as you want them to or that automatically you assume the worst. According to the awesome book Monkey Mind, “Anxiousness isn't shameful. It's being alive to life's contradictions.” I am 25 years old and I experience anxiety almost every day, but the trick is to not let it win. There are some days where I feel like my world is falling apart even if one thing doesn’t go as a planned an angst mind becomes uncomfortable. I truly have to remind myself that God is in control. Take dating for instance. I am an open book and as great as that may sound, it’s as if I’m diving head first into the shallow end of a pool without thinking. Everyone wants in your business; just ask the people at the office who have slow days or are so bored they will listen to you babble about whatever is on your mind, even your most personal of discussions. Sure, it’s great to talk about it, but about three or four people later,...