Good Morning Beautiful and Thoughts
5:30 and 6am are early. I mean they are early. In a time change, the world is dark out, and truly cold. I try to keep my hands in my jacket pocket as I walk Mia around the complex. It's tough to be up and about and ready to go to get to work at the time I choose to be there. It is truly daunting after a night of less sleep, but last night I slept well.
Good morning beautiful is quite possibly the best thing someone can say to me in the morning. One I don't feel it, two I am jittery so I cause others to grumble and groan. I see that in a text, a message online, or a voicemail on my phone and it's as if the whole day turns around. I am suddenly able to get up and get rollin. This morning with a bit of a struggle, and I am sure it is for some too, I said it to myself. No one can validate that but me.
Although it is nice to hear it, especially when it comes from someone you like, it was my turn to own it. They tell you to snap out of it, to buck up, and quit being so stupid, grow up, move along. Truth is, they don't know what happened, or who you really are, what lies within you. Life is hard sometimes, sometimes it is rich and dear, but if we wish to truly live it we must be vulnerable against, show that even if we don't want to. I become hard on myself and berate consistently on what I or didn't do. I worry about other people rather than focusing on my self; one of my best and worst qualities. It is never incorrect to ask for what you hope and what you seek.
However, to chase after, and force what cannot be, never works. Believe me, I have tried it. The best is to pick yourself up, dust off, and begin again. It won't be easy, it won't happen tomorrow, but maybe soon, or maybe in a bit. Ann Taylor says you have to pull yourself together. No one else will. We have to get burned before understanding anything. Everyone feels differently and handles things differently. We live and have experiences and leave people we love and get left by them. Things go wrong, words fly everywhere and suddenly you find yourself where you hoped you would never go or be. You plead and you argue and God says not right now, or maybe not ever. Stop.
Relationships that we work on, are defined by correct intention, honest words, and introspection.. It's healthy to argue, to test ones anger and strength, but there is also a point on when to back off and give breathing room. We hurt and we hurt each other, it's natural, and exceedingly painful. I forgive you and I am sorry are powerful stand alones that even a person needs to give oneself when it seems all is confusing or gone. I realize as I look constantly at my phone waiting for that text or message to appear knowing it won't, accepting it won't and realizing too, I may need an alarm clock that isn't my phone. Maybe, just maybe, the phone got me in trouble. Who knows anymore. Time to go. Applying the red lipstick, taking the eye liner shaping the eyes, puffing up the rosy cheeks, reading the below quote even if it may not be me yet; today is not yesterday and the future is ahead not present. I don't know what it holds, but the best is yet to come!
Good morning beautiful is quite possibly the best thing someone can say to me in the morning. One I don't feel it, two I am jittery so I cause others to grumble and groan. I see that in a text, a message online, or a voicemail on my phone and it's as if the whole day turns around. I am suddenly able to get up and get rollin. This morning with a bit of a struggle, and I am sure it is for some too, I said it to myself. No one can validate that but me.
Although it is nice to hear it, especially when it comes from someone you like, it was my turn to own it. They tell you to snap out of it, to buck up, and quit being so stupid, grow up, move along. Truth is, they don't know what happened, or who you really are, what lies within you. Life is hard sometimes, sometimes it is rich and dear, but if we wish to truly live it we must be vulnerable against, show that even if we don't want to. I become hard on myself and berate consistently on what I or didn't do. I worry about other people rather than focusing on my self; one of my best and worst qualities. It is never incorrect to ask for what you hope and what you seek.
However, to chase after, and force what cannot be, never works. Believe me, I have tried it. The best is to pick yourself up, dust off, and begin again. It won't be easy, it won't happen tomorrow, but maybe soon, or maybe in a bit. Ann Taylor says you have to pull yourself together. No one else will. We have to get burned before understanding anything. Everyone feels differently and handles things differently. We live and have experiences and leave people we love and get left by them. Things go wrong, words fly everywhere and suddenly you find yourself where you hoped you would never go or be. You plead and you argue and God says not right now, or maybe not ever. Stop.
Relationships that we work on, are defined by correct intention, honest words, and introspection.. It's healthy to argue, to test ones anger and strength, but there is also a point on when to back off and give breathing room. We hurt and we hurt each other, it's natural, and exceedingly painful. I forgive you and I am sorry are powerful stand alones that even a person needs to give oneself when it seems all is confusing or gone. I realize as I look constantly at my phone waiting for that text or message to appear knowing it won't, accepting it won't and realizing too, I may need an alarm clock that isn't my phone. Maybe, just maybe, the phone got me in trouble. Who knows anymore. Time to go. Applying the red lipstick, taking the eye liner shaping the eyes, puffing up the rosy cheeks, reading the below quote even if it may not be me yet; today is not yesterday and the future is ahead not present. I don't know what it holds, but the best is yet to come!
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