Save the ta tas, home again and socal life

Save the ta tas, home again and socal life

Recently, after returning from my Italy trip I am learning about bralettes and how much more comfortable and supportive they are. These sets areealthier for the girls! I learned about this from a traveler friend who posted aboutRecently, after returning from my Italy trip I am learning about bralettes and how much more comfortable and supportive they are. These sets are healthier for the girls! I learned about this from a traveler friend who posted about them on her facebook page and at first I thought she was totally nuts because who wants to go without a cup size orsomething that does not look cute! I have worn bras for years and the underwire cuts like crazy and they are uncomfortable as hell but in the name of fashion and sexy the word comfortable need not apply. 
I had pains and I just didnt feel right coming home and my ta tas hurt; also heard it causes breast cancer and bruising, boo. I tried on of the bralettes from Target, and I am surprised to say I am hooked. I do not feel pain and I am doing better already minus cold recovery post travel lol. Only common of course. 

When I came back to the states, the depression set in again. Yes I had free water, and bathrooms, and it was home, and Mia is here. I just got that stuck feeling again. I always have this nostalgia that burns bright and deeper when U travel and learn more about culture and my life. When I am here it feels dried up and I have to give to others to feel full again or give all of myself to be happy. Nothing in this life should satisfy but the Lord they say? Then why do we buy boats, cars, pedicures, new clothes, go out to eat, etc? We consume, home again and we are americans, we consume. It is what we do. 
In southern california, I see it a lot.
People or some are overly pretty, they spend a lot and they don't back down and people even live in places they cannot afford. I got my hair done today, was so stoked to get it done, and love it. I felt like a million bucks. My face fell when I heard her say the price. It was steep. I find myself lately comparing my new job to my old job and my old place to my new place. Bad habits. I also have been dried up fitness wise since I have been home. No energy while sick to go, NOT normal. People say where are you and go workout you will come around. It isn't and shouldn't be about place. I catch myself again in transition phase and I need to love myself through it. This move. This change. I am also a hider when things get to be too much.

As I am approaching 29 next year, I am constantly learning about my health, my life, etc, socal living too, i.e. who I spend my time with or don't, what I need to do to be successful, and rounding myself into what I hope to be: a beautiful grown woman with a huge heart and care for others. It is easy to get caught up in the mess and the hype of others and of the supposed good life. I am learning to be honest with others and my needs and remember that something even if minor may change course of the day.
Today, casual jean friday, I put on makeup and washed my hair and then went to salon and got it done. It felt right and I was happy with result. Sure it will not last, and sure I do not have as many friends here as I did back home, but I am right here making things work. i used to go out a lot, I am finding it is okay to just be present at home, do me. Which in this case, hopefully gym soon!




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