Commit to health, commit to you!

Just so you know- some things are just as important as world travel.

I have been putting my own health on the back burner because I like to put others first. I know it sounds incredibly ridiculous to myself too when I think about it. However, I have. Mia, my friends, my family, my boyfriend, but not me essentially. Yes, I go to the gym and that is crucial for daily life, but there is more. I have had teeth pain for awhile and sore gums; although leaky gut and ibs have stuck with me since I was a kid, along with lactose intolerance. I did not even focus on any of it. I continued to get sick a lot and have no energy, while still trying to work out. It affected my mood and ruined I am sure, some friendships. 

I am grateful for attending therapy for the last four years simply for self growth and to gain the right tools in order to work on things I wanted to work on. That was an expense.

So, when the tagline things is mentioned, I would assume material things, not on concrete need to survive and live happily things. I spent money on dental care(much as I swallowed my pride and anxiety in order to do so) and also purchased professional teeth whitening to look my best at my bfs best friends wedding. Call it vain, call it whatever. I loved on myself and need to in order to keep being the active gal that I so enjoy being. 

World travel is not cheap. It is a dream of mine to go to many places, and I am certain many others share it. Although time, money, children, work, health, and many other factors stand in the way of all that. 

Things you say, like buying frozen yogurt on a hot day, or dinner out to treat oneself after a hard work week. I know what it takes to save for travel, but as of late my life is changing. I am determined to continue international travel, but right now I am really happy with these little things. These joys that maybe others don't agree with, because they are on a different path.

I added more places and goals to my dream board in my room and am going to make it a point to make my mini vacations each month as fun packed and also relaxing too as I can. Commit to health continues, as does work and Mia and bf life balance continues. I am working to let go of people who do not see me, ignore me and don't care about my well being, and also to gradually let some of Reno, sacramento and past fade into the black/grey. I am choosing to hold onto a few close knit people and embarassed and anxious to say I am relieved at being able to do so. Moxie signing off to ice her hiking blood blisters❤️.

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