I love California, misc musings (PRACTICE GRATITUDE): take this down, and learn from it.




California is seriously a great state. It literally has so much to offer. It has sandy, sunny beaches, it has a golden Gate bridge, Tahoe, rocky mountains, little nooks and towns no one has heard of, wineries that are tasty and breathtaking, and it has restaurants up and down the coast you won’t tire of eating at. Born and raised here, besides Florida for 6 years and Olympia Washington for 1yr, and Reno Nevada for 3 years, this is all I have known. I love where I live though too. I always forget how fortunate I am to live and still live in this area. We don’t have hurricanes, or heavy storms. We have forest fires, but they are working to tame them.(goes without saying I am sure there are other things to add)

The traffic down south and in bay area are not great, but it isn’t congested air too badly, so it’s manageable with Spotify, ITunes, Radio, and Podcasts. We have SUP paddle boarding, breweries, kayaking, hiking, lakes, rivers, reservoirs, and rock structures, trees, and we have hubs to hang out or hide in, camp in, or sit in a cafĂ© and soak up the energy. It is recorded as one of the best states to live in.

We take for granted, what we don’t directly see in our daily lives. I am sometimes reminded while making mistakes on one of my programs at work to slow down and check my work, and question the undetermined unknown. I am trying to teach myself to look at it as a learning curve rather than a failure. It is difficult to do if something is your fault. When I come home, the first thing I look for is Mia. She is at the sitters this week, and although it is a nice break, I appreciate her presence when my boyfriend isn’t at the house. The apartment is quaint, and cozy enough for us. The children below us are rather loud, but they stop around 11pm usually.

I have to take a second here to recognize my impatience once more and call it out by name. I am trying to control what I cannot. I love being with my man and traveling to many places and enjoying our time together. It is costly and I budget accordingly on mint app, and at home. I chose to put what I need first, us together, and visiting and our time together and Mia at the forefront, rather than unhealthy desires, which can lead to disappointment in long run.

 I am learning not everyone needs to know my business if at all, and I am learning our happiness although changeable in some areas, may not be changeable in the rest; but all in how we tackle that unhappiness and combat the stages we are in. We look at phases for what they are, a stage in life, or a phase in which won’t be there forever, but that we may miss it when it’s gone. I am not going to fail at this program nor am I failure. Sometimes I have to repeat back to myself affirmations, which I won’t hear from others, but ones that I need to give myself when I feel defeated. I think it’s kind of funny how a lot of my blogs are centered on this gratitude cycle within myself or with others. Practice gratitude. Love thyself, love others!

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