A Joyful Heart Against All Odds : Deciphering the say it out loud moments

My eyes turn green when I cry..... Some say it's a pretty color, but still some tell me they would rather they saw my brown eyed sparkle :). I wonder what makes a sparkle, or a joy that a person can have; even if they lose a sporting event, or have a rough day,  lose something important, are made fun of, hurt, or filled with anger, the joy makes its way to our central being. Maybe it's the fake-it-till-you-make-it factor; of if you just pretend you are happy you will be. (actually works believe me! even if smiling through the tears or on the verge of yelling, or whatever you are feeling). Nothing is as bad as it really seems, well it is at the time, I am certain. I think it could be the romantic in me or the hope, where in the movie the guy or girl races to beat time or a change in fate to try to get to their person in time, to tell them how much they love them them; my latest, was when Jackson Avery from Grey's Anatomy (spoiler alert!) stood up at April Kepner's wedding an announced to everyone he loved her, and he said, "I love even the things I hate about you. I love you April Kepner, I always have." (lol okay this coming from the girl who loathes Jerry Mcguire because it is so pathetic, but still, it's one of those you need to see to believe. You say what you feel even if you get rejected, because down the road you will wish you had and everyone is staring or this person is hardly even paying attention if at all.You do it to feel the relief to say what not many can.You are free and you have come to say what you have been wanting to say for a long time. A joyful heart comes from what make us happy, but actually in Moxie language it's what confuses us, hurts us, angers us, and empowers us, in which the joy expels from. How could you ever feel the joy you feel when it occurs if it does not come without the others, or those difficult storms? Some people can block out any emotion, in fact some are trained to, and it keeps them from everything. Not sure if that's good or not, but everything we feel is unique. The crazy thing about these moments are that we feel them from our head to our toes, when someone touches our hands, kisses our lips, whispers in our ears, or strikes us across the cheek out of what we think is anger but is really hurt or fear even like a father disciplining his child. I got to know a guy who bared honesty like a women shows off her chest, neither are afraid of consequences, or have a care for what people think; they do it because it makes them feel good and lets them feel for a moment and it means something to them. It may be easy to tell your story, (as this man did and shared his life) but it's much harder to admit they want this joy, they are seeking it, so they will do or say anything to get it. I figure some people are scared to admit if something is wrong, or if they truly are happy maybe it seems like they would be bragging or appear selfish, but they have to know it's okay, because a silent heart needs a friend. A joyful heart doesn't hide in a corner, it appears everywhere out loud (when I say out loud I don't' mean full on yell or scream: that whole actions speak louder than words) ! Say it out loud, say what you feel. People say, I feel at this point in time, glad and sad or.....I am so aggravated. A joyful heart is special, and lets people know it never fails, because a joyful heart is love. Humans have the chance to let go of anger in the face of betrayal,deception, or maybe even like Jackson say it out loud. You could be in a crowded room full of people, alone in a coffee shop, or in a meeting and it happens, you cannot hold back anymore or hide what has been eating at you, or robbing you of happiness so long  by shutting it out. Say it out loud at the risk of being judged, stared at, or pushed away, but a joyful heart doesn't forget that moment; why? I can't answer that for you, you have to find that for yourself, but I have a joyful heart against all odds!