Margo's got Moxie ! : the diary of miss red high heels

This year or every year rather, I try to gift give to those I love and care about. I often go overboard and often spend too much on some holiday cheer as well. I like to donate to those who don't have, those without a Christmas, those going through a rough time, etc. End of the year means also with spending is that you come to realize it's work close out before holiday shutdown. Everyone is frantically trying to finish up, catch up, do what they can before taking off on vacation. Much needed this year, so it seems, as of the last week, I have sped up rapidly with work which has been don't get me wrong, needed, but tiring if it's not a steady pace which I thrive better with. We are just so busy and swamped with what we have to do, we forget to stop and just simply enjoy the month of December itself. This morning I woke up and I walked my dog before giving a friend a ride to their destination. I felt refreshed and the air was cool as I watched the sun come up. I feel ...

I grew up with the idea that crying, was not okay it was seen as weak, and with a lack of will to solve an otherwise concrete simple issue at hand. I couldn't do it. I thought that was silly and with heavy anxiety issues it wasn't easy to just shrug off. A friend used to tell me little things made her cry at the drop of a hat, and people laugh, they say stop it, it will all work out, of they full on, tell you to pull yourself together. There have been moments were at the time, I cannot. I rush into the bathroom, run outside, and let them flow ( Queen Elsa part one). My veins turn incredibly white and I can hardly breathe. Praying it will go away, that this is just temporary. Conceal it don't feel it (Frozen, but exact opposite in my world) To most of you, it is only that emotion, for me it's everyday. It's everything I do, think, say, believe, know, feel, hold to. They take a break because they don't understand, and they tell you you need fixing, o...

 It's crazy how when you see other people's travel photos, and you are intensely envious and jealous because you want to be traveling too and going there or everywhere. I have so many places I want to go and as soon as I have a list I start to create another one. I want to do as much as I can before I settle down. I also though have Mia and that has changed me so much. I love her dearly and she makes me so very happy. I am just all over the place, because now I am having to watch my money (def not a bad thing) just cannot go stir crazy anymore like shopping, eating out, etc. I learned about how much you have a little five o clock shadow in your life. I really do. She sometimes gives me attitude in the morning and won't eat her food, or want to go on a walk. I cringe when I have to buy the kibble and realize the stupid price went up, but glad I can switch up her food in case that happens. I was gone a whole week and I couldn't believe how much I missed her. It was almo...