Tis the season : Broke, Swamped, Fat, Loved, Blessed, and Happy

This year or every year rather, I try to gift give to those I love and care about. I often go overboard and often spend too much on some holiday cheer as well. I like to donate to those who don't have, those without a Christmas, those going through a rough time, etc. End of the year means also with spending is that you come to realize it's work close out before holiday shutdown. Everyone is frantically trying to finish up, catch up, do what they can before taking off on vacation. Much needed this year, so it seems, as of the last week, I have sped up rapidly with work which has been don't get me wrong, needed, but tiring if it's not a steady pace which I thrive better with. We are just so busy and swamped with what we have to do, we forget to stop and just simply enjoy the month of December itself. This morning I woke up and I walked my dog before giving a friend a ride to their destination. I felt refreshed and the air was cool as I watched the sun come up. I feel this is how a day start could be. The reality is, my days I start at 6am and am at work by some miracle, at 6:30. It is a wonder really. I loved this morning so very much. I locked my keys in my car like a silly girl! I was super bummed, got some help and everything all worked out. I had to remind myself somehow even if I can let myself get stressed, down, upset, crazy manic for just a sec, bring it back in anxiety self says, and find out where I am. 
This time of year is all of the appreciation for employees, xmas gifts, company program potlucks, dinners out, birthdays, and holiday parties. All of which, the packing of the sugar, poundage and bloated arrive! I am trying to keep all of that at bay as I give my treats to others, but do indulge in a few or two of yummy desserts. I feel better, less drained, and more focused if I do so and then someone else can enjoy those gifts with their families especially when they have less or it's giving back to firemen, policemen, etc.
I am so loved and blessed in this life and in the here and now and this moment. It's unbelieveable. I love my family and my friends, my dog, the church, bible gals. I am surrounded by this love. I forget that love, I forget that circle all the time. I need it so much, this time, and all the time. Love, give love, share love, hold love, love, love all around. Love is all around us (Love Actually movie). You can totally picture that awkward guitarist when i said that I am sure!
I struggle with being happy, no actually I grapple with it to the ends of the earth, but remember I have to stick to positive. Happy holidays to you and your family, friends etc. Get fat, love a little more, be swamped, but not die hard busy, spend a little too much, but forgive yourself this time of month. All the best, Moxie

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