Tonite and Forward I bleed Red

Tonite I bleed Red
Lately this world is concerned with all the drama and the pain, the shootings, the disasters of the world. The colors of our policemen, the colors of our race, the colors of our flag, the colors of the uniforms of men and women all over from the coast guard, national guard, corrections officers, the army, the marines, the navy, the police, the firemen, the emts, the doctors and nurses, the teachers, the airmen, and the pastors, and the priests who lay down their lives in service to us all. 

As a young woman in this country what do I have to give? What could I do with all of this happening in the world. As I listened to my members of my family discuss their wills after my homecooked meal, the sun was still shining. So tonite and maybe going forward, I bleed a different color. I bleed a color of passion, maybe not so much of vengeance or fear, or one of hatred or grief. I bleed the color red, a power color in my world and in this life. What can I give? I was never built for mortal combat, or a life that is hero to others. I step down today because my gift is my blood, from the  blood pumping in my veins to teach a group of kids at sunday school, to educate a conference room on data and the importance of employee relationship, to the meals I create, to the people I love and give love too down to the pint of blood I donate every 8 weeks.

 What can I give ? We cannot run, it solves nothing. If we hide, if we quit, they win. I bleed and stand for the color red. How to save a life? I got my license when I was 21, the man at the dmv said do you know what this privilege means? We own homes, cars, properties, pets, and assets, but we own not much not even that name on that printed on that card. We own ourselves and our actions. He explained the responsiblity of this and my privilege to drive and etc.

 He asked me one more thing, are you going to be a donor? I without hesitation said, yes. Donate what I have to science so that we may understand a life and the human body. I bleed red so that this color battle knows God is bigger than your anger and stronger than your judgment. If he can bleed red, and have passion for those that even I find myself not having it for...then why can't we? (To an extent) I bleed red for those past, for those fighting for my chance to be around a dinner table with a family I so deeply care about to, the friends I spend my time with. As we support the colors of all we hold dear, mine will be red, forever red, as a heart that beats like an athlete from my head to my toe with passion and love against all odds. Tonite and tomorrow and the next day forth. How to save a life in my own way! 

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