Soap Box Moment : Sound off

Seriously though, some people around here are incredibly prejudiced. I am amazed at how even in dating how some gals like myself are overlooked because we are spiritual, religious, too sensitive, have big hearts, or we don't fit the mold of the so-called perfect girl. Yeah, there is no such thing. I cannot believe some people assume that because I am a Christian, I am stuck up person, I don't know how to have fun, that I think alcohol is bad, that I am weird, or that I am not worthy of someone to love, because I am misinformed. I have news for you. I have gay and lesbian friends, I drink alcohol, curse, drive a Civic, and love the outdoor backyard. I speak my mind, and wear outfits that make me feel like Michelle Obama and I like to be able to be around people of all walks of life.

Some people from all religions, places, backgrounds, practices, are incredibly fun to be around, and you would never even know that I am good friends with quite a few of them. I hate these labels and screw those for putting us all in a bin where man or woman, we aren't cool enough for you. You suddenly think from a church goer you are going to hell if you smoke a cigarette, get drunk, or smoke a bowl, smoke pot, or got arrested for shoplifting. Gee, if I thought that about everyone, I wouldn't have any friends, nor appreciate all of the crap I have learned from people who have been through so much. It's incredibly frustrating when something goes so well or so you think, you want to explain it, try to understand it, everyone says you are wasting your time, this person doesn't care, but it's the inner you that finally says : No I won't put up with your shit anymore.

 I get that I have put up with the bs because I care and I think I can let an excuse slide, but I have to remind myself I am not less nor should I settle for less than I am worth. Before there is a comment about being some rich, selfish snob, I am not. I don't judge you if you do a certain thing, that is your choice. I recently messed up for having a stupid list of requirements in a person I want to marry. I won't throw out the top deal breakers. No alcoholics, no divorcees, no skeleton issues(see previous blog for skeleton explanation). However, I am learning to see the light on other things, no college degree but working toward it, tobacco habit, smoke habit. I wonder if there are any who don't' do so anymore. Did I mess it up because I asked so-and-so these questions? I don't think so.

 I think we have a right to know about a past and if they withhold it, what does it say about them? I really don't know. I love to learn so much about people, but I also have a threshold and when it's reached, I take off if I am hurt or pushed away. I shouldn't have to fight for someone's attention, keep texting when ignored, or feel like a loser when I didn't do anything wrong. Maybe I chased after them, maybe I said too much, but if you cannot forgive a woman for that, I do not know what to tell you. Your hands may not be big enough to hold this crown, maybe not enough to hold me. So yes, I am religious or whatever the hell it is some of you think we are, loonies, judging, assholes. Wrong. Check yourself before you start going around categorizing people.

 I have to bite my tongue when people say such mean things or tell me that's why someone doesn't like me or want me. See that feels like someone stole my favorite candy bar and left the wrapper on my desk, like a dick. Lol however, this whole post is entirely melodramatic and I do hope you enjoy it, but truly though, do not like to be called any of that, treated that way, or held in such a regard as being a psycho and if I am, then maybe you should find someone who is so you say...normal. good luck to you, as in this world there is no such thing!