Goodbye Norcal soon and Misc Thoughts
Woefully admit to this, still a terrible driver, especially when it comes to backing out or into garages. Hit the side of my parent's garage this week; wasn't fun. I am trying to be gentle with myself, but when this stuff happens, I don't brush my shoulders off, I cry. I full on cry, and hide. Anger is not my thing, if you yell I don't yell back unless I feel like I have something to contribute to.
Again, the patience has to come from me though. I am in a bonafide transition again. Soon to be going from living at home, to moving down south to San Diego. I had so many mixed feelings about seeing the bible study gals for our goodbye dinner. I barely left the Bird Cage Plaza off of Sunrise and began to cry. I have known them a long time. I have spent my time with them and cultivated relationships with each of them. It has been a blast. They were so loving and gave me a goodbye care package, and I will keep in touch, and be here for holidays.
Goodbye to other things has been just as hard. Goodbye to teaching sunday school up here in Fair Oaks, and the steady on routine of FOPC church and Mia and I living close to current job. Saying goodbye to Data management team at yesterday's lunch was tough. I will see them tomorrow for a few hours and that is it. I also have been walking the plant a little, and saying goodbye to things I will soon say I knew so well. I have a few too many friends, and lately I have felt awful disappointing them. However, with all of the gatherings and what I have to do in the next week in a half I was overwhelmed.
Finally, got my health back, only to see it go back down because I am still not slowing down and allowing myself to just be and relax. I really want to do well. I think the first few weeks at my new job will be fun, but heavy overload too. I am doing well and advice from others who went the distance and moved maybe even further has helped me too realize I have to be good to myself. Take care, and do what works for me. I realize saying no is going to happen, and maybe this move will help me fade away from these too many friendships and cultivate ones that are just close ones.
I talk a lot and tell way too much, so I just have to learn, and what better time than this year. My road rage is something fierce too, so that has to be curtailed especially in socal traffic. I am looking to God for strength and prayer. K-love music has helped. My parents have loved on Mia and seem to be doing well with her being at home. They adore her as do my friends. My routine at the gym has dwindled. I am trying to not get down on myself for not going my normal. I have been tired and sore and haven't wanted to do overexert either. I do feel that it will mold itself out hopefully after I am down there. I was thrilled to get my apartment deposit back. The packing next week will be a task of sorts. I am planning to break up the trip into parts during drive down.
The plan is to see people along the way, all the while eating up as much time as I can, seeing people and doing things up here that I will definitely miss. That would take forever to do though, as there is so much to do in Norcal, and my time is slowly dwindling. I think I recognize, it won't get all done and I will definitely be back. My parents live here, and so do my friends. Although, if I am honest, when you move away, sometimes you do not look back. With Reno, I went back a few times, but then didn't look back. I liked it that way. Who knows, how I will feel with sac. Until then AR final hours and moments, and Sactown final moments this round, coming my way.
Readers, expect February to be interesting, but stay tun
ed. Thoughts on the temporary corporate housing and the area soon to come!
Again, the patience has to come from me though. I am in a bonafide transition again. Soon to be going from living at home, to moving down south to San Diego. I had so many mixed feelings about seeing the bible study gals for our goodbye dinner. I barely left the Bird Cage Plaza off of Sunrise and began to cry. I have known them a long time. I have spent my time with them and cultivated relationships with each of them. It has been a blast. They were so loving and gave me a goodbye care package, and I will keep in touch, and be here for holidays.
Goodbye to other things has been just as hard. Goodbye to teaching sunday school up here in Fair Oaks, and the steady on routine of FOPC church and Mia and I living close to current job. Saying goodbye to Data management team at yesterday's lunch was tough. I will see them tomorrow for a few hours and that is it. I also have been walking the plant a little, and saying goodbye to things I will soon say I knew so well. I have a few too many friends, and lately I have felt awful disappointing them. However, with all of the gatherings and what I have to do in the next week in a half I was overwhelmed.
Finally, got my health back, only to see it go back down because I am still not slowing down and allowing myself to just be and relax. I really want to do well. I think the first few weeks at my new job will be fun, but heavy overload too. I am doing well and advice from others who went the distance and moved maybe even further has helped me too realize I have to be good to myself. Take care, and do what works for me. I realize saying no is going to happen, and maybe this move will help me fade away from these too many friendships and cultivate ones that are just close ones.
I talk a lot and tell way too much, so I just have to learn, and what better time than this year. My road rage is something fierce too, so that has to be curtailed especially in socal traffic. I am looking to God for strength and prayer. K-love music has helped. My parents have loved on Mia and seem to be doing well with her being at home. They adore her as do my friends. My routine at the gym has dwindled. I am trying to not get down on myself for not going my normal. I have been tired and sore and haven't wanted to do overexert either. I do feel that it will mold itself out hopefully after I am down there. I was thrilled to get my apartment deposit back. The packing next week will be a task of sorts. I am planning to break up the trip into parts during drive down.
The plan is to see people along the way, all the while eating up as much time as I can, seeing people and doing things up here that I will definitely miss. That would take forever to do though, as there is so much to do in Norcal, and my time is slowly dwindling. I think I recognize, it won't get all done and I will definitely be back. My parents live here, and so do my friends. Although, if I am honest, when you move away, sometimes you do not look back. With Reno, I went back a few times, but then didn't look back. I liked it that way. Who knows, how I will feel with sac. Until then AR final hours and moments, and Sactown final moments this round, coming my way.
Readers, expect February to be interesting, but stay tun
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