Work, how it is yo.... find your nitch, your place and your purpose in the department

Working with two guys on a data management team is something else entirely. I am seriously learning to not be so stressed out, and forgive myself for mistakes I have made. They surprisingly not only help with work, but one of the guys is cool to talk to about life in general. I thought they would end up being jerks and the training would be horrendous. Both are laid back, understanding individuals who make it happen. We get tasks done, and try not to make a big deal or at least they don't ;). I noticed on this team, I am the early bird though. I get to work super early and the other two stroll in around 8 and 9.

The tough part is being able to not try to be mother hen and check in on them so much and also ask for work. I can sense it annoys them and I try to do my best not to make it so or say sorry a lot. At my last job, I was able to come by and ask questions and be helped even if I had a lot to ask. Not sure here if walking on eggshells or reading into much into things. Which, the latter could be perfectly possible. We all have different tasks, but some days I wonder if I am contributing my best work and if they understand I won't leave anyone in the lurch.

There are a lot of days where I turn my phone off at work to ignore the bustle and flow of text messages or information coming from friends and family, just so I can focus and get more stuff done at work. When I have deadlines, those always take top priority. I think sometimes people forget some of their friends have real jobs lol and cannot sit on snapchat or instagram and read every post or fact on facebook either. Believe me I would try, just so I can prove I care, but I cannot do that for 300 plus people especially at work! We aren't allowed on facebook or social media here, unless we use cell data. Security reasoning and rules for compliance.
  
I don't know the guys have their process rhythm and I don't want to muck it up, which right now that is how it feels, it's like should I even be here ya know... I mean it seems they have it down pat except for a project I was solely given alone to lead. I am not sure if it is a test. I hope and pray I pass even if it means long hours. Maybe it is part of being a newbie. Not sure. I do miss Mia a lot when I am at work big time. She is an emotional support animal, but she is still not allowed on the work force front. I paid money to have her registered, felt it should be done. Happy I did, and we shall see how it works with traveling and housing when it takes effect. I just want to get my groove back that I had at Aerojet. I knew so many people there. Maybe I just need to keep going and meet as much as I can, and learn all I can. No idea yet, what to do, but I am going to try.

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