Half Full or Half Empty: the glass reflection of me


Seriously analyzed. Is the glass half full or half empty? For me it could be either, bu it most certainly needs to be half full in order to be happy! I take a look at this glass and I am actually looking at my life and myself. Glasses make reflections, so maybe this is a direct reflection for me. First off, I am incredibly hard on myself! I am the most anxious person ever. I write to be able to relax my brain and get my thoughts out. I will change and I am working on myself and it is taking time. I also am an SD. if you look that term up it means SHIT DISTURBER. It’s like an alarm button is pushed when the sign clearly says, “ do not touch!” I am a weird individual, and I hope these posts of mine make you laugh, make you think, make you cry, make you smile, after all this is for my growth. Crazy stupid things I have done:  I made guys jealous in a childish way (more than once and made other guys I was interested in turned off with ridiculous behavior) when I shouldn’t have. I tried cleaning my laundry hand wash and wound up dying the whole wash pink. I pouted over a movie I didn’t want to see in front of people I care about and walked out, but later saw the film and wound up writing a review on it.  I frantically cleaned up a stain on the carpet in college from painting my nails and wound up painting it blue to match the carpet. I could make a fat list, but that would be silly. I guess what I am trying to explain is that I am not perfect and I mess up a lot. There are days when I want to fast forward to being 30 and have all the drama of my 20’s behind me! I am the person who really cares very deeply for people in my life. I am one of those people who is odd and I love it!; incredibly goofy (I roll down the windows and play music, singing and dancing in my seat). I once got an apple laptop gift card for Christmas and screamed. “It’s an Apple!” I had no idea what it is for and didn’t get it till someone told me it was for a computer and everyone including myself burst into laughter that I finally got what the gift was! I eat spaghetti O’s and Oreos with peanut butter. I talk a lot; sometimes fast like a car salesman or go on tangents like a history professor. I say one thing and then later change my mind. Regardless of all this, I am human, and to be human is to make errors lol, or maybe that just applies to English. Needless to say, I love who I am and I hope to in the future continue to be seeking the glass is half full not half empty! What’s your glass look like?

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